Second Thoughts and New Beginnings

As I said in my earlier post that I took a break from my busy routine as an IT professional to be a stay at home mom for a while. The summer went on well and so did the holidays. Didn't have any regrets about this pit stop in my life. Now that I am thinking of going back to work,not willingly) though as our family needs my income too, I am having second thoughts about this break. I am so scared of how to explain this gap in my career. Will it look unprofessional that I decided to take a break to spend more time with my family. While I was working, most of my time was spent on commuting and I came home totally spent. Not once did I willingly participate in any fun activities with my kids because I wanted to rest during the weekends. I knew the hustle the week ahead had in store for me. I am just putting my fate in the hands of GOD as I begin this new chapter in my life.

Taking a break

I have been working in the IT industry for almost 13 years. Last April I decided to take a break. I quit my job and decided to stay at home with my kids during the summer. The idea was to start looking for a job once the summer is over. Also during this break I thought I would get my priorities straight and see if I want to do something else all together. I have a bunch of ideas in my head but am very scared if I will fall flat on my face if I try something new. I keep telling my kids to just dive into things to know the depth of it but I myself have always been scared of trying new things. I keep reading articles on the internet and motivational quotes about how you have to try and fail before you succeed and all that. But somehow I can't gather the courage to get something started.I just wanted to write my feelings out to see if it makes any difference.

First Day of School

Yesterday was my son's first day of school at Strawberry Knoll Elementary. Can't believe that he is already starting Kindergarten.He was very excited and a bit anxious at the same time. He decided a week earlier what he's going to wear on the first day (always been picky about clothes--blue jeans and white t-shirt). As we woke up and got ready for school it hit me that today was a big milestone in his life and mine too. My little baby boy was starting his first day of school. Luckily, I charged my camera last night. I just went crazy with the pictures. Fortunately, I was not the only crazy parent at the bus stop. There were many others with cameras hanging around their neck and kids with embarrased looks on their faces just like mine. But who cares! It's a BIG day for me too as a parent.Took the day off to make something special for my son as he comes home after a hard day at school. I was very worried and anxious standing at the bus stop waiting for him in the afternoon. He had a big smile on his face and my daughter whom I have entrusted the duty of taking care of her brother at school was furious. My son already made some friends and wanted to sit with them on the bus instead of her. Well! my little boy is growing up.

Too young for Music

My son Smayan aged 4 1/2 who is in pre-school is a pretty active boy. But he is on the shorter side when it comes to his height. Anybody who sees him would think he's still 3 yrs old. Actually I myself treat him as a 3 year-old. He is pretty smart boy though. One day he came home from school asking if he can enroll in piano classes. I didn't even think he knew an instument like that existed. I just ignored him but he was very persistant asking me every day if I got him enrolled in the class at his school. That made me start thinking how young is too young for a kid to learn music. I googled and started reading everything I could find about this topic but then I realised that unless I try it out I will never know. Maybe, I have a child prodigy waiting to be discovered on my hands.

Anti Sour Grapes

 I knew I was putting on weight but just ignore the issue by not checking my weight. After much discussion with myself I checked my weight last week in one of the locker rooms at the gym. I was 10 lbs more that what I was before. It kinda shocked me and made me swear off all the good things I usually love to eat. I promised myself I will strictly follow a diet .For the past 3 days I have been eating good and working out, not eating any carbs at all. Today I just took some lentils to work for lunch. I was feeling so much self pity while I was heating the food thinking it's just lentils which are tasteless,un-appetizing and all.Since I packed the food in an air tight container the lid got stuck after heating. I could not open the box even after trying for almost 30 mins.Then the real trouble started. The very same un-appetizing, tasteless letils looks very tasty and I actually broke open the lid and ate my lunch. My version of sour grapes story gone anti...

Introducing my daughter ...Vedha

Vedha is 5 1/2 years old and started Kindergarden this year. She is kind of a shy kid and doesn't talk a lot outside the house which worries me a lot.She is very talkative and active at home though. But what I realised in the last 2 weeks was that she talks when she really wants to. For a fund-raiser at school she had to go around selling stuff. Initially I thought she would chicken out but she was very willing to do it. She was well prepared as to what she wanted to say to people and fine tuned all her marketing strategies. I was really proud of her.Last Friday we had a meeting with her kindergarten teacher . He was really impressed with her academic skills and proposed we upgrade her to first Grade. After a series of serious discussions me and my husband agreed upon moving her to first grade. A very proud moment for a parent.